Sunday, January 27, 2008

well , im posting once again .
Im hurting alright .
I just lost so much courage to stand up once more.
I dont know i still like her nords.
i really dont know.
i told her how i felt , but she wants me,
to either , start a new relationship, or make her hurt me just to forget her.
she said she wouldnt mind losing me , this sentence .
made me cry . cause it hurts, so much .
maybe i dont belong to this world at all .
im like, a burden to everyone .
making so many people worried for me, becoming such a heavy burden to them.
and , im like , so worthless .
she didnt even mind losing me.
could you see how much i stand in her heart ?
No positon at all i guess ?
Is like , alot of people advised me this ;
she dont even care for you, why do you even wanna care so much for her?
i just hope . things will get back to normal like before.
the days when me and her, just sit down ,
and really talk about wads wrong with us .
But i guess , now . is totally impossible to have back that kinda days.
im felt like im drifting further and further apart.
from not only her, but everyone else .
God , direct me the way please.
Tell me what to do.
i guess i need some time to really cool down and sort my feelings out.
But i hope , she wont dao me.
i dont mind her doing anythig to me , i just hope.
She wont ignore me once and for all .
cause i really cherish her , no matter as a friend , or more than that .
I just dont wish to lose her.
well, i really hope . there'll be a guy , who's willing to be there for me .
and numb my feelings for her.
i just wanna like her as my friend , thats all .
but , letting go is much easier than forgeting that love for the person .
and now i found myself struggling to breathe ,
sufocated with lies , betrayers , financial , lots more .
I hope . She'll be willing to e there for me.

#Bless Me ));

8:50 PM ♥

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Tragic♥

im postin D:
well, manymany sad things happened lately.
hmm , especially between me and her );
hais , over this week , i've like cried for her over 5 times ?
but all these , i asked for it .
No one to blame at all .
who ask me to step into her relationship and lately founding out that in becoming the third party between the both of them.
wad a bitch ; slut .
hmm , dont reall ywish to mention about these anymore .
seriously, these few days had been quite fun toos .
i've also found out . who my true friends were.
when me and she quarrelled, people like,
yuanyiing, ingelica, ardella , ophila, selicia , ellyn,
and more plus the BALLS FAMILY .
hmmmmm , craps to the past luhs.
i no longer wanna ask for anything again.
im tired , very very tired.
i dont wish to continue all my craps.
i wanna start afresh , and look towards the brighter side.

hais but , she's starting to be cold to me .
and that's so saddening.
which also makes me feel so so guilty .
is like , i say 1 sentence , she reply 1 answer .
last time, it was totally different .
we have lots of things in common to say.
but now , everything seems new to me.
had been so so emo,
so guys to have you all worried ;l
cut and cut , cry and cry , scream and scream.
even felt like dying ; ran over by a vehicle - dead .
these are some notes i've saved over days.

`I wanna see you SMILE'
cause if you arent happy, neither would i be .
i know i cant replace her, but im here for you baby ; iloveyou <3

`i hate myself, for loving you so so much ,
now, i found myself suffering in my own sacrifices.
how i wish a car would just bang me dead .

`in a triangle relationship,
dhere'll always be a one who will be hurting the most.
well, im the one . but i dont mind at all .
cause, im happy enough , to keep those beautiful memories <3

Hmm, others are just privitential ;D
But through all these , i never regretted loving her .
She's really a very very very good friend who tends to help everyone in need.
Perhaps it has been us who had been too close with one another, that's when i love her truthfully .
Well , the past le luhs . Just hope, she wont avoid me barhs .
But she did told me she would , cause she needs to PEACE down ;l
She told me it wasnt my fault ,
but , i still believe its my fcking fault .
That's why i hate myself .
being such a useless fellow in the society.

I hope , to go back to the past.
the time where i really felt the never ending friendship of ours.
{Balls United}
PuaBueyToh ♥
I love all my balls ;DD
; squidball .

`Everything seems so fake to me ; Once the chance s gone, is gone .
i dont wish to hear that you no longer care , i never regretted .
`My tears wont sympathy her , my cuts wont moved her.
Now wadeva i do, she dont really care .
She only cares about her one and only .
oh father lord , help me <3

#&IStillLovesYou<3

10:31 PM ♥

Friday, January 18, 2008

Hougang steady ♥

Im posting ! ;DD
Lol . Today is me and my beloved caijun stead derh 2months !
Yeahhs ! :DDDD
Morning , late for school -.-
Stupid bus , never wait for me .
Hais, then had to stand outside the gate for like 3omins !
Stupid ! Rahhhhhhhhhhhs !
then went in still need sing national anthem .
Cause nord loud enough , so the idiot teacher put us two by two sing siahs !
AIYERRRRRR ! so embarrassing lorhs DD;
Then go back class. Saw my caijun stead ! <3
I love her lots luhs ! wahahhaas !
Then she uhs !
Go flirt around holding other peoples' hand .
walaouuus , sad siah . went so emo ):
then she comfort me . and i was happy again ;DD
afternoon went to phs to have match .

first set ; 25 : 0
OMG?! we got trashed siah DDD:
Then at least 2nd set got improvement ,
25 : 1o ;DD
Well done seniors ! Buck up ! :D
JIAYOUUUUUUUUUS ! ♥

hmmm , after leaving the school .
everyone is like so quiet and emo lorhs .
Hais , but we all decided to go back sch and train more.
so went back and train ;D
So called fun luhs ! ;D
Didnt get scolded mahhs ;D
Hoho :X

Cheryl ♥ - Cuttlefish Ball .

YeeXuan - FishBall ♥

Whooohooos ! Desmond and cheryl ♥

Chery&Me ♥

She wanna kiss me ! ♥

Tomorrow WILL be a better day ;D
#is my choice to love her; i dont expect her to love me back♥

12:29 AM ♥

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

imsorry.

CaiJun;Joleen;Kelly;Me ♥

Wellwellwell .
im back to post .
hmmmm, school starts lerh .
so bored :l
nowadays kept sleeping in class .
hais, must really buck up with my studies lerh.
recently, quite alot of things happened though.
mixure of sadness and happiness.
well, good things never last .
dhat's whad i think .
been quite emo these few days luhs .

on sunday , 13 jan 08.

E402 ! ♥
went to church in the morning.
had service and played basketball after dhat .
Ahhahs, our team won in the championship siahs !
so proud ;DDD

well, dhen later like 4plus , went to meet my keai ♥
at bugis . sat bus there and .
the moment i saw my keai ♥
wasehhs , so chio la she !

haiyoyyoyos. jealous -.-
then went shopping rounds and rounds :l
i only bought a cardigan .
as for keai , she bough much much more :D
rich gal xD
dhen hais, she told me some things about my ex whic really made me damn sad luhs .
cause, is like her words made me think that ,
my ex wasnt who i think he was .
he has much much more things that he kept from me.
is like, he treat me as whad huh ?
lie to me and even tried to two-time luhs.
lucky my keai rejected him for stead .
that time me and my ex still steading siah !
RAHHHHHHHHHS !
wtf , so unfair .
cried and went back home norhs .
damn sad luhs . walaooos .
actually still like him derh, but after dhat.
hais, i love him nord more than a friend lorhs .
thanks keai ♥
for choosing to tell me the truth ;DD

monday; 14Jan08.

CHERYL ♥

this day .
is the day which i regretted doing something.
very regretted .
i shouldnt had told her how i felt.
i didnt her reaction could be that serious .
and didn really mean to hurt her so much .
even now she couldnt dare to face me with the comments i gave upon you .
yet me , i could do simply nothing luhs .

i love my stead . alot alot ♥
is just me getting too sensative over that matter , thats why .
but i didnt knew that my words had been etched into your heart.
im terribly sorry .
if there is gonna be next time .
i will choose nord to say anything .
just keep my mouth shut .
im so so wrong to step that move .

tuesday ; 15Jan08.
nothing seems interesting .
nothing .
as expected .
we wasnt as close as before .
which really meade me damn damn sad .
she kinda like .
dao me or something ? ..
that feeling is so so nord nice .

but who asked for it ?
it was me .
cant blame anyone except me .
i had cause the trouble and misunderstanding to start,
dhen i would have to bear the concequences myself .
i have no rights to blame anyone !
in class , went dull and emo .
i slept and cried.
wanted to cut myself but no penknife .
how ? ..
use collar badge lorhs ;l
and yeahs , i had my wrist bleeding .
hais then later went to meet amanda boyfriend ! ♥
she also chio luhs ! ahahaas ! ♥

she and her stead got prob hais . felt sad for her siahs .
is the stead fault lorhs ! tamade =.=ll
well , i really hope things will get better .
i cherish our friendship alot alot .
hence, i just wanna say to you once more;
im sorry ; 171107♥

#ImBleedingAsMuchAsYourHeartIs♥

1:29 AM ♥

Monday, January 07, 2008

Spammers are sore losers .

Spammers are SORE LOSERS.
or maybe nordd ? ..
hmmmm , although me and dexter broke up .
but , i still love him .
why we broke up ?
reason cause , we both have not much time to spend with one another .
wellwell , so get it right then start giving comments .
dont havent check , dhen anyhow scold scold scold .
so wad if i pei bu shang him eh ?
at least i know dhat wad matters is dhe feeling , not looks .
oh please .
spammers, think about it .
if you , yourself have a blog of your own .
would you wanna see dhis kinda messages which , often appears in YOUR tagboard ?
No right ? dhen dont do this kinda heartbreaking things luhs .
If wanna come and talk , talk to me and find me in hougang sec .
I havent done anything wrong .
why should i be afraid . Now you started all these nonsesnse .
You gotta take dhe responsibilty by scramming off my blog .
have any comments on me ?
add me in msn and shoot them all out .
maybe wad you all said are true .
i'll try to make changes to myself as well .
wad i need is time . zzzz .
well dhen , wake up barhs .
dont be sore losers and hide behind dhe com .

Jotina ; Jeremy ; Liying.
Thanks for everything .
thanks for helping me .
i love you all soso much !
takecares and meet up real real soon !

Dexter, is not your fault .
Is mine , stop balming yourself for nothing .
ILY . Thanks for everything .
You rawks my life ;D

12:35 AM ♥

勇敢的, 走下去 . Live life to the fullest!
	Sunday, January 27, 2008 well , im posting once again . Im hurting alright . I just lost so much courage to stand up once more. I dont know i still like her nords. i really dont know. i told her how i felt , but she wants me, to either , start a new relationship, or make her hurt me just to forget her. she said she wouldnt mind losing me , this sentence . made me cry . cause it hurts, so much . maybe i dont belong to this world at all . im like, a burden to everyone . making so many people worried for me, becoming such a heavy burden to them. and , im like , so worthless . she didnt even mind losing me. could you see how much i stand in her heart ? No positon at all i guess ? Is like , alot of people advised me this ; she dont even care for you, why do you even wanna care so much for her? i just hope . things will get back to normal like before. the days when me and her, just sit down , and really talk about wads wrong with us . But i guess , now . is totally impossible to have back that kinda days. im felt like im drifting further and further apart. from not only her, but everyone else . God , direct me the way please. Tell me what to do. i guess i need some time to really cool down and sort my feelings out. But i hope , she wont dao me. i dont mind her doing anythig to me , i just hope. She wont ignore me once and for all . cause i really cherish her , no matter as a friend , or more than that . I just dont wish to lose her. well, i really hope . there'll be a guy , who's willing to be there for me . and numb my feelings for her. i just wanna like her as my friend , thats all . but , letting go is much easier than forgeting that love for the person . and now i found myself struggling to breathe , sufocated with lies , betrayers , financial , lots more . I hope . She'll be willing to e there for me. #Bless Me )); 8:50 PM ♥ Thursday, January 24, 2008 Tragic♥ im postin D: well, manymany sad things happened lately. hmm , especially between me and her ); hais , over this week , i've like cried for her over 5 times ? but all these , i asked for it . No one to blame at all . who ask me to step into her relationship and lately founding out that in becoming the third party between the both of them. wad a bitch ; slut . hmm , dont reall ywish to mention about these anymore . seriously, these few days had been quite fun toos . i've also found out . who my true friends were. when me and she quarrelled, people like, yuanyiing, ingelica, ardella , ophila, selicia , ellyn, and more plus the BALLS FAMILY . hmmmmm , craps to the past luhs. i no longer wanna ask for anything again. im tired , very very tired. i dont wish to continue all my craps. i wanna start afresh , and look towards the brighter side. hais but , she's starting to be cold to me . and that's so saddening. which also makes me feel so so guilty . is like , i say 1 sentence , she reply 1 answer . last time, it was totally different . we have lots of things in common to say. but now , everything seems new to me. had been so so emo, so guys to have you all worried ;l cut and cut , cry and cry , scream and scream. even felt like dying ; ran over by a vehicle - dead . these are some notes i've saved over days. `I wanna see you SMILE' cause if you arent happy, neither would i be . i know i cant replace her, but im here for you baby ; iloveyou <3 `i hate myself, for loving you so so much , now, i found myself suffering in my own sacrifices. how i wish a car would just bang me dead . `in a triangle relationship, dhere'll always be a one who will be hurting the most. well, im the one . but i dont mind at all . cause, im happy enough , to keep those beautiful memories <3 Hmm, others are just privitential ;D But through all these , i never regretted loving her . She's really a very very very good friend who tends to help everyone in need. Perhaps it has been us who had been too close with one another, that's when i love her truthfully . Well , the past le luhs . Just hope, she wont avoid me barhs . But she did told me she would , cause she needs to PEACE down ;l She told me it wasnt my fault , but , i still believe its my fcking fault . That's why i hate myself . being such a useless fellow in the society. I hope , to go back to the past. the time where i really felt the never ending friendship of ours. {Balls United} PuaBueyToh ♥ I love all my balls ;DD ; squidball . `Everything seems so fake to me ; Once the chance s gone, is gone . i dont wish to hear that you no longer care , i never regretted . `My tears wont sympathy her , my cuts wont moved her. Now wadeva i do, she dont really care . She only cares about her one and only . oh father lord , help me <3 #&IStillLovesYou<3 10:31 PM ♥ Friday, January 18, 2008 Hougang steady ♥ Im posting ! ;DD Lol . Today is me and my beloved caijun stead derh 2months ! Yeahhs ! :DDDD Morning , late for school -.- Stupid bus , never wait for me . Hais, then had to stand outside the gate for like 3omins ! Stupid ! Rahhhhhhhhhhhs ! then went in still need sing national anthem . Cause nord loud enough , so the idiot teacher put us two by two sing siahs ! AIYERRRRRR ! so embarrassing lorhs DD; Then go back class. Saw my caijun stead ! <3 I love her lots luhs ! wahahhaas ! Then she uhs ! Go flirt around holding other peoples' hand . walaouuus , sad siah . went so emo ): then she comfort me . and i was happy again ;DD afternoon went to phs to have match . first set ; 25 : 0 OMG?! we got trashed siah DDD: Then at least 2nd set got improvement , 25 : 1o ;DD Well done seniors ! Buck up ! :D JIAYOUUUUUUUUUS ! ♥ hmmm , after leaving the school . everyone is like so quiet and emo lorhs . Hais , but we all decided to go back sch and train more. so went back and train ;D So called fun luhs ! ;D Didnt get scolded mahhs ;D Hoho :X Cheryl ♥ - Cuttlefish Ball . YeeXuan - FishBall ♥ Whooohooos ! Desmond and cheryl ♥ Chery&Me ♥ She wanna kiss me ! ♥ Tomorrow WILL be a better day ;D #is my choice to love her; i dont expect her to love me back♥ 12:29 AM ♥ Wednesday, January 16, 2008 imsorry. CaiJun;Joleen;Kelly;Me ♥ Wellwellwell . im back to post . hmmmm, school starts lerh . so bored :l nowadays kept sleeping in class . hais, must really buck up with my studies lerh. recently, quite alot of things happened though. mixure of sadness and happiness. well, good things never last . dhat's whad i think . been quite emo these few days luhs . on sunday , 13 jan 08. E402 ! ♥ went to church in the morning. had service and played basketball after dhat . Ahhahs, our team won in the championship siahs ! so proud ;DDD well, dhen later like 4plus , went to meet my keai ♥ at bugis . sat bus there and . the moment i saw my keai ♥ wasehhs , so chio la she ! haiyoyyoyos. jealous -.- then went shopping rounds and rounds :l i only bought a cardigan . as for keai , she bough much much more :D rich gal xD dhen hais, she told me some things about my ex whic really made me damn sad luhs . cause, is like her words made me think that , my ex wasnt who i think he was . he has much much more things that he kept from me. is like, he treat me as whad huh ? lie to me and even tried to two-time luhs. lucky my keai rejected him for stead . that time me and my ex still steading siah ! RAHHHHHHHHHS ! wtf , so unfair . cried and went back home norhs . damn sad luhs . walaooos . actually still like him derh, but after dhat. hais, i love him nord more than a friend lorhs . thanks keai ♥ for choosing to tell me the truth ;DD monday; 14Jan08. CHERYL ♥ this day . is the day which i regretted doing something. very regretted . i shouldnt had told her how i felt. i didnt her reaction could be that serious . and didn really mean to hurt her so much . even now she couldnt dare to face me with the comments i gave upon you . yet me , i could do simply nothing luhs . i love my stead . alot alot ♥ is just me getting too sensative over that matter , thats why . but i didnt knew that my words had been etched into your heart. im terribly sorry . if there is gonna be next time . i will choose nord to say anything . just keep my mouth shut . im so so wrong to step that move . tuesday ; 15Jan08. nothing seems interesting . nothing . as expected . we wasnt as close as before . which really meade me damn damn sad . she kinda like . dao me or something ? .. that feeling is so so nord nice . but who asked for it ? it was me . cant blame anyone except me . i had cause the trouble and misunderstanding to start, dhen i would have to bear the concequences myself . i have no rights to blame anyone ! in class , went dull and emo . i slept and cried. wanted to cut myself but no penknife . how ? .. use collar badge lorhs ;l and yeahs , i had my wrist bleeding . hais then later went to meet amanda boyfriend ! ♥ she also chio luhs ! ahahaas ! ♥ she and her stead got prob hais . felt sad for her siahs . is the stead fault lorhs ! tamade =.=ll well , i really hope things will get better . i cherish our friendship alot alot . hence, i just wanna say to you once more; im sorry ; 171107♥ #ImBleedingAsMuchAsYourHeartIs♥ 1:29 AM ♥ Monday, January 07, 2008 Spammers are sore losers . 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